Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Busy Times

August has been crazy busy. Not only the weekends, but weekdays as well. Weekend 1: Wedding and family vacation in Oregon. Weekend 2: ...I don't remember, but I know it was busy. Weekend 3: Camping at Alder Lake. We really enjoyed time outdoors and with friends, but between noisy teenagers and thunder at night and inconsiderate crows in the morning, we didn't sleep much. Weekend 4: BSF training Saturday morning then immediately off to the Oregon coast again for a family reunion. Weekend 5: PAX. Thanks to the Olympics I have also been up late nearly every weeknight. Women's gymnastics are my favorite events, and of course those don't broadcast until 11 or 11:30 at night. Sometimes I think the universe is conspiring against me.

I had a slight freakout last week that I haven't had in a long time. Jonathan's sister is expecting, and as I began to think about how she'll share her entire pregnancy with family and friends and everyone in Oregon will be watching her grow, it made me think of how Jonathan and I will be on our own up here when it's our turn. We have friends to share it with, but it's not the same as family. I thought about how when I go into labor, our family may not even get up here until after the baby is born. Jonathan is certainly enough for me and I am content with him. I don't NEED to be with my family, but I wish I could be. However, we know God wants us up here and I am looking for peace in that. I'm learning how to pray for God's will to be done, and consequently for His will to become my will. Jonathan has been very encouraging and speaking God's truth to me in the midst of my confliction. I believe God speaks through us to encourage and teach one another. Just another amazing aspect of what marriage brings

We listened to Mark Driscoll's first sermon in his series Praying Like Jesus ( listen here) on our way to the campgrounds. I wondered, how often do I pray for God to get me out, and how often do I pray for Him to get me through? As I listened I began to understand how I can pray for what my heart desires, while still asking that His will be done. I can't explain it nearly as well as Mark can, so I encourage you to click on the link and watch or listen to the sermon. It's a difficult sermon about Jesus' pain as he prayed in Gethsemane, but it's totally worth it.

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